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Digital Poetics: 3 Poems by Carlos Mauricio Rojas


Train wreck marks the transition between when I was in Milton Keynes in the first Lockdown in March 2020, caring for my parents, to moving back to London at the end of the summer. The poem notices the change in the physical environment and its effects on the body. Uninstall Application is an account of the 2015 climate march and recalls a gay man from Pakistan who showed me a picture of his friend who had died in a UK detention centre. A Closet Goodbye is about Roy Adrien Curtis, a queer, neuro diverse man of colour who was found dead in a cupboard in his flat. He had been there for 9 months before he was found. He was a former member of an LGBTQ+ youth club that I was working at when news of his death was announced.


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Train wreck


The train passes through your flat

several times throughout the day


a pole spears through you gives you

time to do something with your life

a fruit fly bounces on the note-pad

the bay window kisses into itself


glass everywhere like stars

like a piano the house plays


into the ground a passenger

breaks-up with their partner


over text the floor beneath them

opens the tracks fanged the tunnel


swelling back into the throat

of the river the street lights


toiling with yield the teeth loosened

filled with earth the cups blaze into petals


out of skulls bones bloom

books see their past lives as trees


flying like geese the cutlery flocks

many mouths unveiling house plants


seeing what we’ve done the phone rings

and everything is as bright as an eye


swallowing a bonfire your mother called

cuho hijo

estoy pensando en ti


bullet-hole sized entries


a dios te bendiga


ribs smoothly driving out like antlers


te recibes mi mensaje?


the debris and rose of it all


death nodding with an umbrella in hand.



Uninstall Application


The fox on the road waiting for my chest

to say something.


Daises breaking

veins into concrete.

Clouds

skeletons of fish.


A farm dogs curiosity

on how a mountain stretches its tongue.


I want to tell the fox I’m sorry my eyes

have turned against me but my tongue

has killed itself.


Kept the candle lit


in my throat.


Making playlists for when

the ghouls come to play.


Little moons

keep my body assembled for this long.


I spent the last showers of rain with my spine.

Finding my centre on the easel.


The heron flies like a river-dragon

gives me snail shells worth of emptiness.


The blue moth has come to visit

abandoned beasts


and you’re making graves

like you’re just beginning.


We fashioned wings from chewed

ginger and bankers marrow.


battle-cry hoodies

banners from spirals in ice.


Coffins with the names of oil companies.

Smoke from our palms.


Coalescing wretches to un-whiten

the sabotaged bloc.


The deer looks

at us understanding our closed hands.


There was nothing I could do for the man

who showed me a picture of his dead friend.



A Closet Goodbye

For Roy Adrian Curtis


you close the door hoping

your eyes peel off the sun


against god’s eyes

you lay your final bed


put out your cigarette

sipped from a cracked


tea-cup to playlists

singing you to sleep


with yourself inside

goodbye notes typed


Instinctual hands

constant like shattered faith


upward to a tinged answer

for despair


the damselfly admiring

your breathe


as if waiting for summer to leak

out of the corrugated


memory of august

you describe the body


dancing in a bedroom

the rain rains so gently


Its devastating

your hands downward


to a dyed corpus

of abandon


you close the door

with yourself inside


to chase the gleam

opening somewhere


where sand castles

float above the sea


a magician sits

with their books


under a bridge

analysing a tool


brushing the fire

naming the wreckage


is it you steps away

from the protest


passing a flower

to someone.


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Carlos Mauricio Rojas is a British Welsh Colombian poet based in London. They are a recipient of The Invisible Presence Programme for British and LatinX poets and writers 2018. Carlos is a co-founder of Maricumbia, a queer latinX dance night running from 2016-2019 raising funds to support the Latin American Peoples Disabled Project and The Save Latin Village campaign. They founded Paosar (poets action of solidarity and resistance) raising money to support LGBTQIA people in South America and in London. Their work has appeared on clavmag an online magazine for queer writers and they have performed their poetry at The Roundhouse and at Bare-Lit festival at The Albany Theatre. In October 2020 Carlos was selected for Poetry Lonon’s mentoring scheme where they are mentored by Vahni Capildeo. Carlos is currently working on their chapbook which will be their first printed body of work. Their poems talk about themes of migration, queer and trans existence, and multicultural heritage.


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This publication is in Copyright. Carlos Mauricio Rojas, 2021.

The moral right of the author has been asserted. However, the Hythe is an open-access journal and we welcome the use of all materials on it for educational and creative workshop purposes.

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